Holy crapola' I just noticed I have not written since christmas...naughty me!
Well a little run down - I'm still getting my crap together mentally and physically. I have decided I need to really get bloody serious with the whole weightloss and have joined weight watchers - so now I really am accountable! I have lost a little bit since having Leila but I think if I really put in the effort I would of lost alot more..alot more 
I have also seeked help for my mental issues, to which has been ok untill today...was rudely spoken too this morning by a mental health worker who was ringing to change my appointment, which had already been done three times by other workers there!!! Major case of miss communication between staff there and unfortunately I copped her rudeness this morning. I was so upset as I had only had an hours sleep and was trying to explain to her that someone had already rang about this and it was becoming frustrating - in the end I got so upset I told her that if this is what the mental health service was like then she could shove it up her...where the sun dont shine. 
I was so emotional after that phone call, and having no sleep did not make my emotions any better. Trav ened up calling to sort out everything and she apologised.
It has taken me a long time to get help and when this sort of thing happens it really makes me not want to bother; good thing I'm somewhat mentally stable. Anyways, enough of that stuff.
As I mentioned I have joined Weight watchers and I attended my first meeting tuesday night. I was so nervous when I joined online which I have never really been nervous before, maybe its a good sign of great things to come! 
Leila is over 9mths already and I can not get over how fast it has gone!! When everyone tells you to enjoy it because it goes fast, they are bloody right
I'm already planning her 1st birthday!
She starts daycare next week, only one day a week. I wanted her to go for the interaction with other children as she is mainly with just me and Travis, so I think it will be good for her. Its funny, because I have worked in child care I'm actually worried about her going...lol... I just think of all the kiddies in their biting phases and think gosh I hope she doesn't get biten..oh the bullies that are in care
I know she'll be fine, but I will find the first few times hard.
Travis's mum and dad are visiting for a couple of weeks; we are meeting up with them on friday and spending a few nights in Ausky so we can explore Karijini National Park with them. This will be my second visit to the park - so beautiful there. It'll be great exercise exploring all the gorges etc.
Well I best be off to have a cuppa and some down time as Leila is napping. Mummy time now 
I will promise to come in and keep you updated with my WW's journey.
cw 104.4kg - taken clothed at WW 16/9/08 sw: 124.6kg Weight lost so far: 20.2kgs